This past month has been an experience. From visiting my girlfriend in Florida, who I know I can trust, to having people enter my live, who I am not sure I can trust. I don't like feeling this way, but I do. I would be happy going to florida once a month to have an honest, heart warming, non judging, and loving conversation, with a non-christian, sad, but true. Who lets me say what I feel,and makes me feel safe.
I have learned to trust God, but I still have the sense that people are people, and everyone, in my mind has a motive. I am going to be working on this, but trust for me is huge!
As God has put a new chapter in my life, I need to step out of my box, but I am not comfortable, yet. I once was, and was hurt, so this is going to take time. I cannot get over it in a minute.
I have a lot of work in front of me, and I really don't know if I can trust anyone other than God, my guards are up, and I am scared.