I am slowly coming to understand that the way my life has gone, the good and the bad, was known before I was even born. If I had the chance to change things would I? Oh yeah! But I have to be content where the lord has placed me in this time in my life.
I Know he put me in this particular job, I prayed about it. But, sometimes I wonder why?
I wanted to get married, I prayed about it, and then chaos, and turmoil, Why? to grow closer to Him.
I have to stop focusing on the could, would and should of's, and focus on what is really important, and that for me is focusing on Christ. Nothing else really matters, if my eyes aren't on the one who directs my life, I might as well take my will back, and go along and suffer some more.
Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning it's shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.
Just for today, My thoughts will be on the one who matters, not a church torn apart, an old friendship, or anything that gets in the way of what is important.
Nothing else matters, so wondering does no good.